trahn

What do you do when you see an amazing girl on the tube and looks and smiles are exchanged? You are well aware that she will get off shortly and you’ll probably never see her again. Do you seize the moment and approach her? Do you really have the courage to do that? What do you say? Would that make you look like some pervert or is it a sweet gesture?

I, as you might have guessed so far, did nothing. I thought long and hard about it but then the train arrived at her stop and she left with a smile. I didn’t have a clue what to say and the fact that she was with a friend or a family member made the whole scenario even harder. Should you just give them your number or email and then let them make the decision? Is it appropriate to do something like that or should you respect other peoples privacy while commuting? If this would’ve been in a club no one would care if I approached her and neither would she. Is it more flattering and does it show greater initiative if you do something like that? As always I think to much and the opportunity disappears even before I can make a decision. I know now where she lives, maybe, and that area isn’t the biggest but then again this is London and I don’t want or have the time to stalk people.

Damn you rules of society. Who really decides what’s right and wrong anyway? Should I care what others might think at all? For another time I might do things differently, most likely not thou….

What a blessing for all us single people out there. We don’t have to spend a pound on anyone except ourselves and we can distance ourselves from society even further. Sarcasm and irony are my best friends, Hehe. I enjoy seeing people freaking out about what to get their partner and what to do. Take it easy. It’s just as good as any other day so make the most of it as you always should. Commercialised in the same way as Christmas but I would most likely make an effort if I had someone to share it with but I sure as hell don’t mind. If I were to worry and get depressed because I’m alone on this specific day what good would it do. Nothing’s going to change if you do that so just deal with it and try to have a blast with your friends instead. I know I will.

Happy valentines day to you all…what a joyous occasion.

Life is a mystery , some of us are more aware of this than others. Things don’t always turn out the way you wish but most of the time you’re aware that there’s nothing you can do about it anyway. These are the hardest things to deal with. If you’ve done what you can and things still don’t plan out you might feel bad about it but you know inside that what you’ve done was your best and it is therefore easier to deal with. When things are outside your control you can’t do anything else than accept the inevitable and try to keep up your spirit. Time is the best cure for most things, doesn’t make it easier but you’ll forget soon enough or at least not care as much as you might do in this moment. I accept all things in my life with a smile on my face, or at least I try. I always take in consideration that things could always be much worse and that there’s nothing that will change certain things and worrying about them will just make you mad. I don’t like everything that happens to me or certain things I have to do but I endure them and live on trying to learn from everything.

I’ve so far in my life experienced things that made me smile and laugh so hard that I‘ve cried. I’ve cried so much that I’ve laughed and I’ve felt like there was no tomorrow and that nothing else mattered. I’ve been madly in love and I’ve had people who loved me. I’ve felt more or less every kind of emotion at one point or another in my life. All these feelings has shaped me into who I am now and I know how to deal with my emotions in a healthy way. Like I said, I’ve been sad but that hasn’t stopped me in any way and it never will. Just because things go against your inner wishes doesn’t mean you should stay inside everyday crying or feeling sorry about yourself. Life goes on and for all we know we only have one chance so we might as well make the best of it.

I’m quite an emotional person but my appearance and the way I am would easily deceive anyone. My family would most likely think I held it all inside but just because I don’t cry in front of them doesn’t mean anything. My personal opinion is that I think it is healthy to show your emotions when there’s a time and a place for it. I don’t believe you should keep things to yourself. You should always be honest with what you think and feel and share it when necessary and appropriate.

I find that I have to share what I think with people it might concern and I would probably go mad if I kept it to myself. Not everyone like this approach but it works for me. Another thing is that writing this blog has a therapeutic value to me. I share what I think and somewhat what I feel with other people and I find it relieving.

These are some of the things on my mind at the moment, all due to me feeling a bit down at the moment but I’m trying to be realistic about it and think ahead no matter how hard it might be. I’ve done what I can do and I don’t regret anything. It’s all a part of life and good things are bound to happen again so I can’t stop living now.